Honor, Embrace and Accept
My subject for this post was not what I intended to write about. I had a few ideas for topics but yesterday sparked something that led me in a different direction.
Honesty and authenticity are what I promised in this blog, so here it is my friends:)
My husband and I were in Florida this past weekend for a cousin’s Bar Mitzvah. We had a blast catching up with family, and since we didn’t have kids with us, we treated it like a mini-vacation!
Here is how I roll on vacation. If I feel like exercising, I exercise. If I don’t feel like it, then I have NO problem skipping. That was not always the case for me, so I’ve come a long way in letting go of the rigidity I once had in my life. Like most people, I also tend to splurge when it comes to eating and drinking! I don’t consciously go out of my way to eat everything under the sun, but I definitely indulge and have zero regrets about doing so!
When I return home however, I am usually ready to get back to what I like to refer to as “balanced eating” and of course, my usual exercise routine.
I have to tell you, yesterday I just couldn’t find the motivation or desire to exercise, eat healthy or do anything close to those things! I wanted to sleep, eat crap and stay far away from the million and one things I was supposed to do.
When it comes to food, I tend to honor my cravings because I know they are fleeting and they do NOT make or break my diet on a consistent basis. Yesterday however, was supposed to be my day to get back in the swing of things and yet I had ZERO desire to do that.
Now I’m getting to the reason for writing this post today.
After getting up to make Alex’s lunch and say “goodbye” to him before he took off for school, I skipped my morning walk in the canyon and went back to sleep for an hour. I told myself I could just do the walk later in the day, so no big deal.
I needed to unpack, do about 10 loads of laundry, go on a few errands and of course hit Costco and grocery store since we’d been gone.
From the moment I woke up, I had cravings! Since it was my day however, to get back on track diet wise, I fought the cravings I had. I just splurged all weekend! I kept thinking to myself, “it’s time to get back to it, so put your big girl panties on and do it!”
Finally, while in line at Costco… I said f#%k it! For whatever reason that I didn’t care to explore anymore, my mind and body just weren’t feelin the “clean up your diet” mode so I decided to honor it!
So… I proceeded to get a big piece of pepperoni pizza at Costco. But here’s where I get to wave my freak flag big time! I prefer regular Coke (no diet for me) to Pepsi (which is what Costco serves), so with pizza in hand I actually drove across the parking lot to McDonald’s, walked my butt in and got a regular Coke! I sat in my car for a few minutes and enjoyed EVERY BITE AND SIP I TOOK!
I realize in the grand scheme of food choices, a piece of pizza and a Coke is NOT exactly crazy crappy eating, but it’s the bigger point that I want to share with you.
Rather than continue fighting where I thought I SHOULD be and what I thought I SHOULD be doing, I simply honored the fact that I wasn’t feeling it and embraced it 100%! No guilt, no shame, no getting down on myself!
It’s now Tuesday and I’m back on track and more importantly, I’m okay with doing so. I just needed that extra day to get back in the swing of things!
When your gut speaks to you, listen to it! Embrace what your mind and body are telling you and own it 100%… no guilt, no shame!
PS - I never did my canyon walk yesterday and I’m okay with that too… LOL:)
Have a great week my friends.. oxo!